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Mary's Journal
| On my mind...school |
[14 Dec 2007|09:11am] |
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The only way I get to class is the city bus...
which isn't showing up.
great.
this is the last day before finals and I was hoping to go to class and figure out what I NEED to know.
but i guess not.
oh well.
1 more day of classes and I'm done with this semester. =)
hopefully I do well on the finals.
Hate sociology, teacher never told us if we needed to know everything or only stuff from the last test on b.c he couldn't decide at that moment. fucking lame.
hope I do o.k.
I'm going back to bed because I had a hard time sleeping and didn't fall asleep until 4am
to wake up at 7:30am
be outside at 8am
wait in the cold and snow for 20 min
for nothing.
AWESOME.
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| On my mind...some girl i can't stand. |
[04 Dec 2007|12:59am] |
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this one girl named sarah has hated me off an on from since i met her in junior year.
i cant stand her anymore.
& i thought since she went to college that she maybe became more mature you know, but nope, didn't happen.
soooo... now she hates me again because i was talking to a guy she likes a lot i guess.
and she flipped out and was talking shit about me saying im a stupid whore.
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Im a stupid whore??
wtf.
im a whore from talking to someone?
someone who i've known longer than she has
i've been friends with him since 8th grade.
she met him junior year.
and i can't talk to him because she has a crush on him???
FUCK HER.
i can talk to whoever the fuck i want.
and if they were dating i'd still talk to him.
you can't fucking own people, and tell them who and who not to talk to.
She is not worth my time at all.
everytime she goes bipolar on me i usually forgive her and try to mend things b.c i dont like being in fights with people.
but fuck that.
argh sometimes people are just so annoying.
and im done giving people chances that don't deserve them.
"you need to grow up, because at this point its just getting PATHETIC."
thats what i told her.
if she listens to me good. if not idc b.c shes not my problem.
ya harsh. but im sick of her being a bitch to me every other week for no reason, and im not taking that shit anymore.
p.s. if ur gonna say shit about me. get some fucking balls and say it to my face.
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| On my mind...damn |
[04 Sep 2007|07:24pm] |
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this is the first day in a while im not working and i have nothing to do at all, im so bored.
i start college tomorrow, hopefully that wont be too bad, im just a little nervous though, not knowing how to get to my classes and knowing no one that goes there =/
o well if i don't have any friends in class i'll prob. do A LOT better, and i can always hangout with them after work =).
what to do, what to do....
hmm i need a new layout. anyone know any sites with good layouts, i've had this for too long. but it is pretty =)
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| On my mind...warped tour |
[10 Aug 2007|09:41pm] |
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it was amazing, my legs n arms hurt so much, too much walking/ lifting people over my head that were crowd surfing.
got to see...
a static lullaby
as i lay dying
bless the fall
chiodos
drop dead gorgeous
escape the fate
flogging molly (for a bit my friend wanted to see it)
parkway drive
rja
still remains
underaoth
and a few more i cant rememeber
but i missed...
coheed and cambria =/
hawthoren heights =/
Kse =(
meg and dia =/
paramore D=
o well i'll see them some other time, kse i wanted to see a lot but i think it was playing during one of the other ones, and paramore was during etf, and i like paramore a lottt but i loveeee etf. i'll just have to see two def. another time.
and i have an intensely bad sunburn.
all of my friends forgot to bring sunblock =x
you think out of 8 people 1 would remember =P
o well it was still amazing!!! =D
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| On my mind...tickets |
[08 Aug 2007|01:32pm] |
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so boston has to be sold out for warped tour... wth!!
well i got a ticket at the last minute from some girl who had an extra once, i just need to go pick it up today. but only dave n i have a ticket and daves friend
so today im going on the hunt for tickets for the rest of my friends.
when i looked online omg so intense the price, freaking from 160-316 for tickets now :O! wth?!
its such bullshit.
but dave might have found a place thats selling them for 60 so hopefully this works out.
just have to wait for him to pick me up =P... blah boredom.
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[08 Jul 2007|04:06am] |
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So I finished dying it... =)
and now it's 3:52 and I should b sleeping, but I'm pretty hungry, and too lazy to get food ahhhhhh. <
oh, and I don't like bowling, it's ok, but I suck at it, reallllly bad.
^it's still wet, sry my camera kills faces with flash, and the flash goes on by itself unless its somewhere bright. damn you camera with a mind of your own.
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| On my mind...can't wait! |
[07 Jul 2007|02:04am] |
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for warped tour this summer. i didn't get to go last summer because of some complications... but im def. going this summer!
can't wait to see....
A Static Lullaby
Alesana
As I lay Dying
Bleed The Dream
Bless The Fall
Chiodos
Drop Dead Gorgeous
Escape The Fate
Haste The Day
Paramore
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
... and there's plenty of other's in between there, but I got lazy. But those are the bands I really want to see live.
P.S. saw Alesana live once, amazing
Almost saw ETF but they didn't show, assholes
almost say DDG but randomly got sick and was throwing up my guts everywhere pretty much, but heard there freakin amazing live.
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| On my mind...awesome movie |
[07 Jul 2007|01:33am] |
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i fucking love transformers sooooooooooooooooo much. it was pretty much one of the most amazing movies i've seen.
what's annoying though is if u look at the review. all they do is bash it and saw how it pretty much sucks. i don't know what kind of people would think that, but obviously they can't judge movies very well. this movie is extremely popular and I believe it's going to make a hell of a lot of money. damn I'd see it again if I had the money.
bottom line reviewers don't know shit. That movie to me is def. more that 2 1/2 stars.
and the weird thing is, the movies they actually do rate high end up sucking pretty bad. well isn't that ironic.
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| On my mind...sweet! |
[15 May 2007|12:52am] |
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well today sucked for a few reason too lazy to explain so ill make it short.
-didn't fall asleep until 3am and had to get up @ 6 and I was way too tired for school so I stayed home.
-went shopping with my sister and mom to get Anthony a present for his birthday wen., and I got 2 shirts =) which was pretty awesome because I wasnt expecting to get anything
-came home to be bored some more until my brother came over
-he found out about christine cheating on him and had been drinking for the past 5 hours, came over with anthony and his stuff and ended up throwing up in the bathroom,ewww, i felt wicked bad for him though
-around 5 he went to pick up christine, she had no idea he knew, and he was driving while being drunk, my parents were in denial that he wanst drunk, when it was obvious, he didnt get in an accident though
-they talked it out i guess and are going to try and change, which i doubt will happen because this sort of this has happened in the past and nothing has changed
-and im pretty sure he'll move back here soon because he tried to earlier today until they "talked it out"
so that was the bad part of the day, it was ok after that, just watched tv then izzy and tim dropped by and i got to see tim's awesome tattoo! cant wait until i can get some and I want to get a monroe piercing maybe, but im not exactly sure yet, then again if i dont like it i can always take it out right?
talked to mike on the phone some more then watch tv with suzie and now im going to bed and im gonna go to school 2morrow no matter what =P, prom is this friday im still nervous ack! o well ill get over it soon enough right? and itll be a good time im pretty sure? =)
oh and im not grounded anymore yay! so 2morrow i can hangout with friends again, but first im going to help sam's aunt pull weed's to get some money b/c i dont think im getting a job anytime soon =/. damnit trying to get a job is wicked annoying.
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| On my mind...life is too much sometimes |
[17 Mar 2007|01:10pm] |
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| On my mind...sick. |
[06 Feb 2007|10:27pm] |
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So i went to school today, probably should've stayed out, I didn't feel good most of the day but w/e. Even went to step after school and was dancing and stuff. I had the worst headache all day, and other stuff too, but I'm too lazy to write it all and u all get it, I was sick so ya... we had a math quiz today I didnt know about, sucks, and an essay due in english, damnit, so much for getting 2 A's the last 2 terms and not having to do the final hahaha. I think I'm staying out 2morrow, I'm going to sleep =) yay! and write my essay, do my 3 writing labs, fill out my apllication for college, and this other apllication to keep going to this other thing, wow im so informative.
anyway I got home at 5:20 about and fell asleep sometime before 6 and I didn't wake up until 10 lol and I think I'm going to go back to sleep in a little bit because now my head is starting to hurt a lot again =/ BLAH.
Oh, and even if I feel sick on thur. I think I'm going to push myself to go to school, because there's step after and were going to preform. jdfvnkdbvdshfb. end.
P.S. my nose won't stop running it's annoying. grrr.
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| On my mind...Day In The Life Of Mary. |
[22 Jan 2007|09:25pm] |
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So wearing a skit out when it's winter isn't smart, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, at least I had leggings on. Went to math, talked, left early to get camera shit. Went to the audotorium with Izzy and Holly. We then searched for our other camera buddy Tim, and then had to set up really fast before the Costa Ricans started preforming.
Little Info: Costa Ricans came to the school for exchange for a few weeks. I think there leaving wen. though. There all really nice, they speak english really well too. These are the times I wish I took spanish instead of french as a second language.
They all had something they were good at. Some acted in a short play. Others played instruments. Some danced, like ballet. Then at the end they do dances from their contry. People got pulled on stage, Russo went up and Tim, they were lost lol. Izzy went up, and was good because he knowws how to do those dances. Rosanne got to dance with some costarican, * oh, by the way she was good at it, because she used to dance like that a lot, she used to live in Costa Rica.* I don't know his name, she danced with him before too at a dance they had at some church for all the costa ricans. Anyway I'm almost positive she likes him. Too bad he lives so far away though =/. At the church dance, before he danced with her he asked her dad for permission =D lol I find that wicked cute. And when I saw her dancing with him today they looked so cute together <3. She might go to costa rica for a few weeks sometime this year.
ANYWAY, we taped the preformance. We got to watch it 2 1/2 times, came in late the last time. I didn't mind though I liked it alot, made me wish Americans actually had cool dances that everyone knew how to do like the Costa Ricans do. Before the end of the day we went out to eat at a chinese reseraunt. Where the waitress wwas sort of scary, she like standed at our table waiting for us to give her a tip, so we did and she kept wanting more money lmao. Then Holly was complaining because she had to put in a dollar.... it's a dollar you'll live, and you didn't have to give her itif you REALLY didn't want to part wwith that dollar. Oh, before we decided to tape stuff again we had to get the cameras and Tim didn't wwant to, understandable he was having a bad day. Izzy didn't want to get both of them. So he's like comeon Holly and she's like omg omg no I can't blah blah, and she's like mary do it, and I'm like I'm the one who does most of the work editing it, ading subtitles, and background music, and she can't even get the camera. Like I don't mind editing it at all, it's just taht when we did the french exchange students interview I did all the editing and I knew I'd do it again for this, and Holly hasn't done anything all day, Tim had one camera and Izzy had the other one. So you think she could take over for tim at the end of the day? but no. And she wwas arguing a lot about it for no reason, so I was like "fuck this I'll get the stupid cameras because it's so fucking hard."So I go in get both come out, NOW that she say I was pissed she wanted to take one , jesus do I have to yell at this girl everytime to have her do something simple. but ya i was pissed so I just wwalked by her. So ya she still annoys me sometimes. She p[robably will more tomorrow, so you can all look foward to that rant =P.
Oh, I'm still pissed about my sister looking through my cell phone. My brother doesn;'t want me to bring it up to her though. But jeez thats fucked up, she was looking through alllll of my text messages ones sent and recieved looking at who they were from and shit. What if I had something really important in there. Not to look ago I had one about my "problem" sent to someone, and one of my friends telling me he;s bi. The she was telling my brother when he was like wth r u doing, that I would od the same to her. WTF no I don't go into peoples private lives at all. ARGH. BLAH W/e!
Served my office detention... in a weird way. It's supposed to be and hour long. We ere there for 20 min. No teacher was there so Izzy, Devin, and I were just talking and having fun. Then we were like fuck this theres no teacher I'm not staying. So we went into the hall and saw Rosanne and talked to her for a while and stuff. Hungout for a bit then Izzy drove me home.
I was looking at pics last night of what I want my hair to look like, and this is what I wanted. I wanted something like this for a while now like since the summer, I'm just a little afraid of trying extremely different things, mostly because I don't want my hair to come out like shit in the end you know? Anyway here's some pics, tell me what you think about it =).
Hair Now:
Straightened here, sorry it's dark in my room.
I was too lazy to do much to it that day. These were like a month ago so It's a little longer now, but pretty much the same.
Let me describe it a tad. So I have side swept bangs, blue obviously. Then long hair goes to about almost the middle of my back now. There's a layer of blue underneath all this too. And a sort of faded red with brown, from when I dyed my hair burgundy over the summer and so many times before that lol. Ya dark red's my favorite hair color, but now the blue is pretty freakin awesome too.
I Want Something Like These:
So pretty much, a very choppy look. Lot's of layers, razored, with bangs but I want it combed foward and the bangs cut like that. The 1'st and 2nd pic show what I want the best I think.
Color I Love:
I FUCKING Love this color, I"ve always wanted to get it, for like 4 years now, but because I have dark hair, obviously awesome reds like this won't work =/. My mom won't let me bleach my whole head, but you never know I might do it anyway. Ya So...
P.S. Tim, and Holly are getting their nose pierced on WWen, Lucky S.O.B's, I have to wait till I'm 18 *July wtf too far away*, or I might do it earlier :x.
"We're gonna ride the race cars
We’re gonna dance on fire
We’re the girls Le Disko
Supersonic overdrive
So what's it gonna take?
Silver shadow believer....
Spock rocker with your dirty eyes
It’s a chance gonna move
Gonna fuck up your ego
Silly boy gonna make you cry." ~ Shiny Toy Guns
SO PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT IT. IF YOU THINK IT WOULD LOOK GOOD OR NOT. K THX =D.
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| On my mind...Games? |
[22 Jan 2007|09:18pm] |
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The name of the game is stream of consciousness. The idea is that you start with a word and reply with the first thing that comes into your mind - sort of like inkblot tests, only you then branch off of the idea you've just presented as an answer and keep going until your head hurts or until you're scared of your subconscious. If you're curious, check out my example. I'll include a word if you pretty people want to play.
This epic battle: Roses.
Roses, Red, Love, Wanting someone, losing love, hating, not trusting, losing innocence, losing people, getting lost, confused, distrusting, sadness, depression, cutting, changing, looking back, past, happiness, children, innocence, gullible, happiness, trusting, loving, mom, teaching, growing, friends, boys, sex, getting used, depression.
Ya, so I suck at this because the rest of the half I wrote, it all just started looping again and again... ya I need practice at these obviously... lol.
Your word: Fantasy.
You can post a bunch, or just post one word. You don't have to end up at the same word like i did.
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| On my mind...ARGHHH |
[10 Jan 2007|09:59pm] |
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Wtf, we're learning this hard dance in step, and I wanted to practice it, but I don't remember the fucking name of it, and izzy doesn't know how to answer his fucking phone... wtf.dfvsdlj agniohio sudfhgnio sdufghioasdufghios du fghiosdugyidufygsidugy fuck.
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| On my mind...Shoot From The Hip |
[01 Jan 2007|02:49am] |
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I don't see what the big thing about this is but I'll say it anyway, Happy New Year!
I'm feeling a lot better I was really sick with the flu for like 5 days and when it seemed I was getting better and hungout with friends , the next day I was in bed throwing up every half hour fomr 7 a.m. to 2 in the afternoon. Not fun. I'm feeling a lot better today, but I'm not drinking. Don't feel like getting sick again, and I don't really like drinking that much anyway, I've already had a bad experience with it, so ya.
Today pretty much stayed on the couch, didn't eat much today either I'm not 100% well yet, but better than before. Watched Naruto from like 2 until 10 hehe I'm a sucker for anime. There was a bleach one on the other day but I pretty much saw all those episodes, I like the ones in japanese better, the english voice doesn't fit some of the characters. Anyway, during that Anthony fell and hit his head on the floor *ouch* I didn't see it but everyone was freaking out, he was bleeding a lot, but didn;t need to go to the hospital, asn;t hurt that bad, thank god. My brother went to pick up Christine from work, then they came back to our house and then everyone was arguing for a while about how people didn;t watch him when they said he sould, and pretty much blaming people on an accident. It was stupid. But a few years ago there used to be more fighting, for hours, and with a lot more yelling. My dad was being a jerk about the whole Anthony thing and made my mom cry, sister cried because my mom did. Yup good new year so far.
The everyone got drunk but me. Played Baldderdash * i think thats how u spell it* I love that gave, it's wicked fun I think. Played it until Tom got sick and started throwing up. Then we played DDR while Tom threw up some more and locked himself in the bathroom for an hour doing that. Then he went home with Christine and Anothony, and my brother Sean drove them.
Suzie and Paul are watching a movie downstairs, it looks boring. I have a book to start reading and then an essay to do, but I;m trying to delay that. If I don;t finish it 2morrow my mom said I can stay out on Tuesday so I can finish then because I didn't get to do it over vacation because I wwas really sick. So... this vacation sort of sucked, but I did go shopping once and bought a lot of cool stuff. And I got to watch anime, which is always good =). .. I only have $9.50 on my phone and no money, damnit. I think I text message too much =/, oops.
P.S. I was looking on myspace and saw a comment on my sort of friends pic by my ex-boyfriend saying "LETZ BAND", he supposidly says that to a lot of girls *only online girls*, I just find it really funny because when we dated and attempted to have sex, it didn't work because his member couldn't do the job, but that's probably a good thing, I'm happy he didn't take my virginity.
P.S.S. not that I really care about penis size, but his was pretty small, he was a real jerk as a boyfriend that lowered my self esteem a lot, and made me hate myself, so I don't mind being mean about this =).
"Heartbreak baby is half the fun,
you bring the bullets i'll bring the guns,
take ten steps now turn and draw,
i shoot from the hip then watch you fall."~ A Change Of Pace
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| On my mind...Sort of bored. |
[19 Dec 2006|10:27pm] |
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Basics
Name: Mary
Sex: Female
Age: 17
Zodiac sign: Cancer
Ethnicity: American, French Canadian
Height: 5'5" , maybe a little taller..?
Weight: 120
Eye color: Hazel
Natural hair color: Brown
Current hair color: brownish red with blue bangs and blue layer underneath.. maybe I'll put a pic up one day...
left- or right-handed: Right
Political party affiliation: Democrat
Piercings: 3 lob piercings on each side, one top cartilage on the right, and industrial on the left. Then getting a belly button ring, and once I'm 18 nose and lip hopefully.
Tattoos: None yet, drawing my own that actually will have meaning to it.
Favorites
Animal: bunny, puppy, kitten
Color: and shade of blue, usually dark tones though.
Color to wear: Black
Style of music: Almost anything, but mostly like Rock, Screamo, some punk, Metal, metal-core, death-metal... you get the idea..
Band: hmm probably Atreyu, or DDG
Song to sing: at the moment, Underoath- Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape
School subject: Probably Current Topics, even though there's a huge hour long presentation I have to do coming up soon
Thing to take pictures of: Friends, when were all out having a good time.
Beverage: Dr. Pepper, or water
Pie flavor: .... cheese cake with cherries, hey it looks like a pie.
Do you...?
Own a car: no I need a job first, and I don't have rish parents that give me everythign my little heart desires.
Like George W. Bush: Nope, not at all.
Believe in aliens: eh.. maybe.
Are you...?
Allergic to anything: ya some medicine
Racist: Nope
Homophobic: Nope
Have you ever...?
Wrecked a car: Nope
Failed your drivers test: Passed permit, haven't taken the next part, need to wait until I'm 18. Don't have money for Driver's ED
Snuck into an R movie: didn't sneak in, usually they don't care.
Been to another country: I wish.
Miscellaneous
What do you hate the most?: Nothing really, just get really annoyed by differnt things and people, especially ignorant people.
The most expensive thing you've bought: on my own... would be my guitar amp around $180
Where do you want to go to college?: I wish somewhere far to get out of my house, but I'm not that lucky. I get to go to a community college which isn't that bad, but I still have to live at home for the time being =/ damnit.
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| On my mind...Jesus I'm ready to come home. |
[18 Dec 2006|10:28pm] |
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I don't know why I have to care so much.
"Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me..."
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| On my mind...FRIENDS ONLY |
[27 Nov 2006|09:09pm] |
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COMMENT TO BE ADDED.
PLEASE TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF IN YOUR COMMENT.
I'M A GENUINELY NICE PERSON AND WILL ADD ANYONE.
IF YOU CAN GIVE GOOD ADVISE THAT WOULD BE GREAT.
OR IF WE HAVE SOME OF THE SAME INTERESTS.
♥ ♥ ♥
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